text me back pleaaaaaaaaaaaaase
on about the same girl from the last post.
ok so i blocked her. only on whatsapp. so she could find me on instagram if she wanted to. which i understand is me being ridiculous. but i kept obsessively checking my phone to see if maybe, just maybe, she finally responded. i deleted whatsapp off my phone to solve this, only to be desperate to go home so i could pull up the browser version on my laptop. so i figured blocking her would remove the urge to check. which it did. but now im just sad cuz i wanted her so bad n i think this is gonna be bothering me for so long . And she was the one who reached out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what do you mean you came out of nowhere confessing to your 4 yr long crush on me and you spent 4 months flirting with and getting to know me and my life and sharing yours as well and this and that and then you !!! ghost!! me!!!! what!!! did i do!!! a week before she ghosted me she was talking about coming to see me!!!!!!!!! what could i have done in that week !!! i dont want to believe shes a bad person. i know something happened. but what?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!??!??!?!?!?!?
ok ive determined through this experience being a lesbian is fucking stupid and i no longer enjoy it . being me is ridiculous and i never particularly enjoyed it